“there is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.” 1 John 4:18
Lately I’ve been wondering where I should go. I have all these doors in front of me but also the paralysation that comes from perfectionism and people’s opinions. To push forward would mean to put myself in the most open place I’ve ever been.
How pertinent is this verse in this moment? Perfect love drives out fear.
I feel like it’s such a millennial thing to talk about ‘pursuing my dream’. It’s like there’s just a lack of work ethic with a nebulous excuse of this ‘higher standard’ of ‘finding myself’. I don’t ever want to seem like following what God has put in me is me being lazy or entitled.
No matter what you want to do, or what you’re called to, there will always be fear and negativity. Rather than letting it break me down, I’m working to ignore the negative. It’s so hard! The second I push forward, it’s like a wave of it comes. Ugh! Why?!
The key is, there will ALWAYS be a REASONABLE excuse.
Always. You may never feel educated, gifted, smart, talented, pretty, assertive enough. At some point, you have to start. Know that God doesn’t guide you where he hasn’t equipped you to go. It has nothing to do with being lazy or taking the ‘easy way out’, it just means that the onus is on him. If he’s telling you to pursue something right now, he knows what he’s doing.
I feel like it’s too easy for me to be the negative critic in my life. Take a compilation of all the discouragement I’ve had from others and myself and put it on replay in my mind. “You’re not qualified because ______.”
As someone who is very stubborn, I know how hard this can be. I’m also a perfectionist, so I’m very critical of myself. I am well acquainted with my flaws and I have no problem rubbing them in my own face. Often, God is the one encouraging me through me sassing myself. Haha.
“If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them.” James 4:17
So, what does all this mean and why am I sharing it? Well, I hope some of you can relate. I hope you feel encouraged to step out into what God has called you to do. I hope that you feel the spark of desire to pursue all the things. There’s a beautiful road set before you.
I had to come to terms with the fact that I was the one standing in my own way.
Don’t follow in my footsteps. Get out of your own way and pursue it! Take the step that is in front of you. Don’t make it so complicated.