I’ve been studying(ish) the book of James lately.
It’s a really short book but there’s so much goodness in it. I’ve talked a lot about the first couple verses which centre around facing difficulties and considering the joy in growing through the trials.
What stuck out to me this time, was more from verse 5 on.
“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.” James 1:5
I love this! I think anyone who’s studied for exams knows this verse by heart, haha! I love how open and willing God is to provide us with the wisdom we need. But what always gets me is the next verse.
“But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.” (v. 6-8)
It’s so convicting! It’s like, light and fluffy, here’s some wisdom then, BAM truth bomb.
This is so applicable to everything. We’re asking God to speak to us, then he does and we take it for a minute, but after a minute of waiting or uncertainty we quickly run back to doubt. Doubt always seems so comforting and safe… familiar.
I was meditating on this in many areas of my life. I pray, ask God for a word, and then I get it. Maybe it’s a word to start your own business. So, you research it all and get really excited. Maybe you even meet with someone who could help. Then, you leave. You question it. Was that really God? Maybe I should do it alone. Maybe this isn’t what God wants. All of these things come from fear. Fear always tells us we’re not worthy of what God has already given us or called us to.
No matter how many qualifications we have, no matter how much experience, it’s never enough. Fear always plays a role of a deficit.
I was wondering why my life seemed to be pretty circular (flat earth kind of circular 😉 ). It seemed like EVERY time I was moving forward, it would stop. There’d be an abrupt pause in the progress.
When you start to see a pattern in your life, take note!
Patterns are reflections of what’s really going on in our lives.
I had to realize that many patterns were, to a great extent, caused by myself. It’s like the August Burns Red song Provision: losing it all made me realize I am the victim, the culprit, the casualty and the cause.
There are many things which aren’t in my control (like my health, to a great extent), but there are many things that are in my control. I’ve also learned that oftentimes God wants us to move forward even when we’re not sure of the direction.
I’ve started pressing out into things that didn’t make sense, but the door was open, then God would redirect me as I moved forward. Alternatively, I would realize the very thing which made no sense was actually the thing that led me into where I was supposed to be.
Sooo, bringing it all back to these few verses. God wants to give us wisdom in everything but we have to believe him in it. Throw off all the insecurities and let God lead you. “Let perseverance finish it’s work in you so that you may be complete, not lacking anything.” (v. 4)
ALSO, if you’re uncertain, do pray and ask God and find a couple people you can be accountable to and ask them to keep you in prayer. Sometimes we don’t know the right answer. Sometimes we filter it through too many biases. Wisdom can come through another person as well as straight from God to you.